Song: Rihanna - Unfaithful
Just happened to listen to the above song and I was wondering to myself. How could such a thing happen. The girl seemed to love her bf(i assumed) but still she lets herself go out with another guy and intimately at that. Can anyone enlighten me please?
I admit that guys are having the same problem too but in this context it seems that the girl is well kinda in love with that guy or so I assumed. For guys usually its just plain lust and we don't have any emotional attachments which in a way makes it safer for us. Not necessarily good nor a reason to so something like this in the first place I understand. But for women... well it does seemed, in this song at least, that there are emotional attachments. Umm... Comments from anyone?
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
Thursday, August 06, 2009
Who am I to them (For Brownie)
Someones in a bad mood but I was not told why.
Who am I to them.
Their mood have been vented onto me.
Who am I to them.
No contact for almost 2 days.
Who am I to them.
They prefer to confide in their friends.
Who am I to them.
Their friends made them happy.
Who am I to them.
Where does that leave me.
Who am I to them.
Just who the fug am I to them.
Who am I to them.
Just who.... Toodles...
Who am I to them.
Their mood have been vented onto me.
Who am I to them.
No contact for almost 2 days.
Who am I to them.
They prefer to confide in their friends.
Who am I to them.
Their friends made them happy.
Who am I to them.
Where does that leave me.
Who am I to them.
Just who the fug am I to them.
Who am I to them.
Just who.... Toodles...
Sighz..
Feeling very fucked up.. Wonder if anyone understands me cos sometimes I can't even understand myself.. Haiz...
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Happy New Yr 09!
Hey there everyone whose been reading or following my blog! Firstly Happy 2009 to all and may this year be better then the previous in every sense! Secondly thank you for being a loyal reader to my humble abode online. :)
So its a new year! Some might wonder what it could mean to them and some like myself couldn't really care much. To me its just another day diff shit if you know what I mean. New year resolution? Well I never really believed in resolutions but of cos any resolution I make, I wished it could come true. So far none ever really came true. So yeah screw those resolutions!
So what could 2009 mean for me? I couldn't really care much.. BUT... there's always a BUT eh? Hahahha... But I do wanna achieve some things this yr.
I've been without any real aim/achievements that I could be proud/happy with myself. So yeah if I could say it in this way... my New Year Resolution would be to achieve what I would like to achieve. Ya ya I know its kinda going one whole big round when I can just say it straight. Well sometimes I just don't like to say it straight. So what is this resolution? Well my first two resolutions I can't tell la. Only when I achieved it then I would say! Haha.. I'm a sucker sumtime.. Anyway my third one would be to achieve more wealth! :) I guess my fourth one would be to be more religious??
I've really failed miserably in that aspect. Sighz... Don't wanna say la.. Anywa that's all for now. Again wishing all of ya out there a meaningful 09! Adios amigos berambus! Toodles~
So its a new year! Some might wonder what it could mean to them and some like myself couldn't really care much. To me its just another day diff shit if you know what I mean. New year resolution? Well I never really believed in resolutions but of cos any resolution I make, I wished it could come true. So far none ever really came true. So yeah screw those resolutions!
So what could 2009 mean for me? I couldn't really care much.. BUT... there's always a BUT eh? Hahahha... But I do wanna achieve some things this yr.
I've been without any real aim/achievements that I could be proud/happy with myself. So yeah if I could say it in this way... my New Year Resolution would be to achieve what I would like to achieve. Ya ya I know its kinda going one whole big round when I can just say it straight. Well sometimes I just don't like to say it straight. So what is this resolution? Well my first two resolutions I can't tell la. Only when I achieved it then I would say! Haha.. I'm a sucker sumtime.. Anyway my third one would be to achieve more wealth! :) I guess my fourth one would be to be more religious??
I've really failed miserably in that aspect. Sighz... Don't wanna say la.. Anywa that's all for now. Again wishing all of ya out there a meaningful 09! Adios amigos berambus! Toodles~
Wednesday, October 01, 2008
Our fate?
Its 2am and I have not done anything to clean up my room. I hope I will have the time and strength to clean up my room. Was on the phone off and on talkin to my friend. Friend had some problem which friend might find very difficult to solve.
I am back to the topic which I just love, Life. I've been told that "God works in mysterious ways", "If God is not giving you what you want now, God's probably planing something much better" and etc. But true to my take on life which is basically, life is what we make of it with permission from God.
May I elaborate on it. There are times when we feel that we have done all we could but we are just not gettin the results we want. Things like job, love, fortune and etc. For me as a Muslim, I always believe that we just gotta work hard at what we want and at the same time pray that God will answer our prayers and bless us with what we wanted. But sometimes the things that we want is not actually good, and God knows it so he delays in giving it to us. But if we work hard enough, we will eventually get it. In this case, God sees ur effort in working hard to get what u want, altho it might not be the best for u, but for as he is most giving, he gives it to you. But most prob in the end, it wont do you any good. God din't want to give it to us initially but since we want it so much and we work so hard for it, he gives it to us and when we find out that its not actually the best for us, that's his life lesson to us.
Some of us might call it fate, but i beg to differ. Fate is one thing, but we can always change our fate. We change it by praying hard to God and working hard towards it. God will, we will get what we want. But whether its for better or worst, we will never know for we cannot see the future. Only God knows.
Let me give an example, we want to get that degree so much. So much so that we tighten our belt and save and scrimp on every dollar whenever we can and we study so hard for it. So lets say God gave us our degree and we excel in our career, earn big money and climb up the social ladder substantially fast. Along the way, as we know it, money is the root of all evil. As such along the way we sway from our inital aim; which is just to get a good career and earn jus above avg and not more. We get into trouble and indulge in things that we are not suppose too. Alas we get into trouble or maybe end of the day we find that even if we have money and status we feel that our life is empty. So is gettin what we want really for our betterment? We will never know for things can also turn out that we make it big and we give to charity do more charity help the less abled and stuffs which makes our life more meaningful. So you see my dear readers...
Whether we get it or not its God's will coupled with our effort. If its good for us God will give it to us when the time is ripe. But even if its not good for us, God might still give it to us. Not because God doesnt like us but for he wants us to learn from our mistakes. Remember that we wont be on this earth awfully long. When time comes, have we really did good? Or have we just lived life routinely?
So dear readers dun fret when we do not get what we want nor do we be so happy about it for whether in the end its good for us or not we have yet to know. But remember for everything that happens to us, there is a reason for it. Whether its good for or bad for us, end of the day God just wants to enlightened us. The question then would be how will we looked at the enlightenment that we got? Positively or negatively? If we ever get to see God's enlightenment that is...
I shall end this entry with this and let us ponder over it..
"Life is a choice that we choose from the paths that lies before us"
Selamat Hari Raya to my fellow Muslims and toodles~
I am back to the topic which I just love, Life. I've been told that "God works in mysterious ways", "If God is not giving you what you want now, God's probably planing something much better" and etc. But true to my take on life which is basically, life is what we make of it with permission from God.
May I elaborate on it. There are times when we feel that we have done all we could but we are just not gettin the results we want. Things like job, love, fortune and etc. For me as a Muslim, I always believe that we just gotta work hard at what we want and at the same time pray that God will answer our prayers and bless us with what we wanted. But sometimes the things that we want is not actually good, and God knows it so he delays in giving it to us. But if we work hard enough, we will eventually get it. In this case, God sees ur effort in working hard to get what u want, altho it might not be the best for u, but for as he is most giving, he gives it to you. But most prob in the end, it wont do you any good. God din't want to give it to us initially but since we want it so much and we work so hard for it, he gives it to us and when we find out that its not actually the best for us, that's his life lesson to us.
Some of us might call it fate, but i beg to differ. Fate is one thing, but we can always change our fate. We change it by praying hard to God and working hard towards it. God will, we will get what we want. But whether its for better or worst, we will never know for we cannot see the future. Only God knows.
Let me give an example, we want to get that degree so much. So much so that we tighten our belt and save and scrimp on every dollar whenever we can and we study so hard for it. So lets say God gave us our degree and we excel in our career, earn big money and climb up the social ladder substantially fast. Along the way, as we know it, money is the root of all evil. As such along the way we sway from our inital aim; which is just to get a good career and earn jus above avg and not more. We get into trouble and indulge in things that we are not suppose too. Alas we get into trouble or maybe end of the day we find that even if we have money and status we feel that our life is empty. So is gettin what we want really for our betterment? We will never know for things can also turn out that we make it big and we give to charity do more charity help the less abled and stuffs which makes our life more meaningful. So you see my dear readers...
Whether we get it or not its God's will coupled with our effort. If its good for us God will give it to us when the time is ripe. But even if its not good for us, God might still give it to us. Not because God doesnt like us but for he wants us to learn from our mistakes. Remember that we wont be on this earth awfully long. When time comes, have we really did good? Or have we just lived life routinely?
So dear readers dun fret when we do not get what we want nor do we be so happy about it for whether in the end its good for us or not we have yet to know. But remember for everything that happens to us, there is a reason for it. Whether its good for or bad for us, end of the day God just wants to enlightened us. The question then would be how will we looked at the enlightenment that we got? Positively or negatively? If we ever get to see God's enlightenment that is...
I shall end this entry with this and let us ponder over it..
"Life is a choice that we choose from the paths that lies before us"
Selamat Hari Raya to my fellow Muslims and toodles~
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
HARI RAYA!
Welcome welcome!
Hari Raya is just around the corner? How's my Muslim frns preparations doing? Hope all is well! For me well I haven got myself anything this year! Seriously! Seluar dalam pun tak beli siol! Only gave mom some money to get myself a baju kurung. But this year is kinda disappointing cos she got me a super super super simple one!! Now I'm contemplating to get another one cos the current is just way to simple. Hmmm.. Well maybe not, depends on budget la. I mean what for I spend on another kurung right? I'm like gonna wear it like only a few times. So yeah. Maybe I'll just spend abit more on a samping( I haven worn one for ages man! ) and maybe a new songkok! Haven got myseld a new one for a few years now. Other then that, I haven got any new shirts or pants. Maybe today I will get some for myself la.
My room have not been cleaned yet. So dirty and stuffs. Suddenly so many things to be done! And its all gonna be last min! But I am quite good with last min thinggie if my mood come. See how ar later. Hehe. Anyway if anyone is reading this, any good wallpaper? Tot wanna get it and past on my old cupboard. Its way too yellowish already and dirty too seh. I'm lazy to clean it la so that's why. See how la later. Haha!
Anyway past 3 days have been rather busy for myself. Got duties at F1. Yeah been like work home slp work everyday. Ludky 3 days only. Wonder how the CISCO and Aetos can take it. Heard they are working like up to 6days seh. Tskk..
Umm its nearing breakfast time. Think I'll just do something like clean my room a lil and then breakfast and after that slp! LOL
I think that's all for now(suddenly I feel so rushed! Grrr) Take care all and have a good raya for my muslim counterparts and happy holis for those not celebrating it! Toodles~
Hari Raya is just around the corner? How's my Muslim frns preparations doing? Hope all is well! For me well I haven got myself anything this year! Seriously! Seluar dalam pun tak beli siol! Only gave mom some money to get myself a baju kurung. But this year is kinda disappointing cos she got me a super super super simple one!! Now I'm contemplating to get another one cos the current is just way to simple. Hmmm.. Well maybe not, depends on budget la. I mean what for I spend on another kurung right? I'm like gonna wear it like only a few times. So yeah. Maybe I'll just spend abit more on a samping( I haven worn one for ages man! ) and maybe a new songkok! Haven got myseld a new one for a few years now. Other then that, I haven got any new shirts or pants. Maybe today I will get some for myself la.
My room have not been cleaned yet. So dirty and stuffs. Suddenly so many things to be done! And its all gonna be last min! But I am quite good with last min thinggie if my mood come. See how ar later. Hehe. Anyway if anyone is reading this, any good wallpaper? Tot wanna get it and past on my old cupboard. Its way too yellowish already and dirty too seh. I'm lazy to clean it la so that's why. See how la later. Haha!
Anyway past 3 days have been rather busy for myself. Got duties at F1. Yeah been like work home slp work everyday. Ludky 3 days only. Wonder how the CISCO and Aetos can take it. Heard they are working like up to 6days seh. Tskk..
Umm its nearing breakfast time. Think I'll just do something like clean my room a lil and then breakfast and after that slp! LOL
I think that's all for now(suddenly I feel so rushed! Grrr) Take care all and have a good raya for my muslim counterparts and happy holis for those not celebrating it! Toodles~
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Off days just passed so fast!
Today is my first off. From work went straight back home as usual. Had to lug my heavy bag containing my work related items inside. I dunno why, but on the bus i felt kinda sleepy(not very sleepy) so i just closed my eyes. And voila when i woke up the "next minute" the bus was already going inside the interchange! Damn!
Went down the bus and saw another bus with the same service number just berthed. So i ran(yes i can run! wow!) and went up the bus. Inside I felt tired and had this i-dun-giva-damn-attitude-to-ppl and went back to slp. Haha. Almost missed my stop but i din! :D So i went down at my stop and quickly made my way home.
Reached home I bathed and almost immediately went to slp! I woke up it was already 6plus nearing to break fast time. So just washed up my face and waited for break fast.
After that went to my work place to take some more items for work as I'm involved for the F1 duties. Its ok if I do not take the items tonite tho as I still need to settle some stuffs at workplace tomorrow. But my colleagues went there so i tot why not jus join them and slack awhile afterwards.
So yeah after taking my items, we went to have a drink and slack at the usual park and went home nearing to midnight. Reached home used the net awhile and went to slp again at abt 2am
Wow! I could actually slp at 2!!! I mean i always slp like at least 5am onwards. Guess I was tired. Its good also la. I always sleep so late that when it matters for me to slp early i cant! Like having insomnia! Damn!
Anyway just had my breakfast and i tot i will just go to bed later for about another hour or so before going to work again for briefing on the F1 duties. Ok shall not delay my slp. Have a great day readers!(if i still have any! lol)
Toodles!
Went down the bus and saw another bus with the same service number just berthed. So i ran(yes i can run! wow!) and went up the bus. Inside I felt tired and had this i-dun-giva-damn-attitude-to-ppl and went back to slp. Haha. Almost missed my stop but i din! :D So i went down at my stop and quickly made my way home.
Reached home I bathed and almost immediately went to slp! I woke up it was already 6plus nearing to break fast time. So just washed up my face and waited for break fast.
After that went to my work place to take some more items for work as I'm involved for the F1 duties. Its ok if I do not take the items tonite tho as I still need to settle some stuffs at workplace tomorrow. But my colleagues went there so i tot why not jus join them and slack awhile afterwards.
So yeah after taking my items, we went to have a drink and slack at the usual park and went home nearing to midnight. Reached home used the net awhile and went to slp again at abt 2am
Wow! I could actually slp at 2!!! I mean i always slp like at least 5am onwards. Guess I was tired. Its good also la. I always sleep so late that when it matters for me to slp early i cant! Like having insomnia! Damn!
Anyway just had my breakfast and i tot i will just go to bed later for about another hour or so before going to work again for briefing on the F1 duties. Ok shall not delay my slp. Have a great day readers!(if i still have any! lol)
Toodles!
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Missing hol...missing what!!!
Heya fellas! Its been awhile since i last blog regularly. Well good thing is I decided to try and blog regularly ar. Hiak hiak! Anyway today is my off day and guess how i spent it? Yeah!! I slept the whole blardy day! LoL.. I know its not exactly good to slp the whole day while ur fasting but I guess I was quite sleepy! Duh!
Last nite I watched Young and Dangerous part 2 so yeah I din sleep the whole nite. Kekeke.. So there I was.. Woke up at 6plus watched tv and then eat dinner! Yay! LOL... After that I went to cut my hair :D I look so much neater now. Haha.. Afterwards went to frns area to just chit chat awhile cos I was quite bored at home with many things to do(which i never really intend to do if i got the chance haha!)
Right now waiting for my uniform to finish washing(some how dat din sound quite right.. umm) After that I'll just iron em and I guess try to sleep! I have been sleeping very "early" this few days. I guess that always happens during fasting period. Sheesh!
I was wondering what I did yest and i finally recalled. Took me quite awhile tho to rem. Must be I'm doing something I'm so not interested. Anyway Yest was first off and the night before was doing my armoury stuffs. And guess what! One holster went "missing" Damn! I tot I was so damn unlucky! So yeah the whole blardy place kinda knew that it went missing. So after my night duty, as usual, we just slack at the team office and some of us jus doze off. I tried too but i guess i cant keep my mind off the stupid missing holster. I recounted everything that i did and it finally occured to me that the holster could not be missing. Cos the total amount yest(with no holster issued) and the amount I handed over is correct! It cant be suddenly out of nowhere my holster gave birth! So yeah after checking with my admin officer and some brain cracking(damn!) i was pretty confident that it was not lost. Sheesh! Interesting night! Grrr!!
Sian! Tml I'm on patrol! Arghh I just hate patrollin you know. All kinds of idiots exist in this world I'm telling you! I only like to attend interesting and big cases! Keke cos I will see everything first hand and I wont be managing the incident really cos my supervisor would there managin it so i can "lelek"(relax.. lol)
K la.. I guess its until here.. Gonna wait for uniform to finish washing(still doesnt seem right) lol.. and i'll be going to lala land! Good nite everyone and to the muslims, hope raya preparations are hot! Toodles!
Last nite I watched Young and Dangerous part 2 so yeah I din sleep the whole nite. Kekeke.. So there I was.. Woke up at 6plus watched tv and then eat dinner! Yay! LOL... After that I went to cut my hair :D I look so much neater now. Haha.. Afterwards went to frns area to just chit chat awhile cos I was quite bored at home with many things to do(which i never really intend to do if i got the chance haha!)
Right now waiting for my uniform to finish washing(some how dat din sound quite right.. umm) After that I'll just iron em and I guess try to sleep! I have been sleeping very "early" this few days. I guess that always happens during fasting period. Sheesh!
I was wondering what I did yest and i finally recalled. Took me quite awhile tho to rem. Must be I'm doing something I'm so not interested. Anyway Yest was first off and the night before was doing my armoury stuffs. And guess what! One holster went "missing" Damn! I tot I was so damn unlucky! So yeah the whole blardy place kinda knew that it went missing. So after my night duty, as usual, we just slack at the team office and some of us jus doze off. I tried too but i guess i cant keep my mind off the stupid missing holster. I recounted everything that i did and it finally occured to me that the holster could not be missing. Cos the total amount yest(with no holster issued) and the amount I handed over is correct! It cant be suddenly out of nowhere my holster gave birth! So yeah after checking with my admin officer and some brain cracking(damn!) i was pretty confident that it was not lost. Sheesh! Interesting night! Grrr!!
Sian! Tml I'm on patrol! Arghh I just hate patrollin you know. All kinds of idiots exist in this world I'm telling you! I only like to attend interesting and big cases! Keke cos I will see everything first hand and I wont be managing the incident really cos my supervisor would there managin it so i can "lelek"(relax.. lol)
K la.. I guess its until here.. Gonna wait for uniform to finish washing(still doesnt seem right) lol.. and i'll be going to lala land! Good nite everyone and to the muslims, hope raya preparations are hot! Toodles!
Let me break from my hiatus with this...
Bila Allah cepat memakbulkan Doamu, maka DIA Menyayangimu
Bila DIA Lambat memakbulkan doamu, Maka DIA Ingin Mengujimu
Bila DIA tidak memakbulkan Doamu, maka Dia merancang sesuatu Yang lebih Baik Untukmu. Oleh itu, sentiasalah bersangka baik pada ALLAH dalam apa jua keadaan pun
Kerana kasih sayang ALLAH Itu Mendahului KemurkaanNya
Semoga hidup kita diberkati Nya InsyaAllah.. Slamat berpuasa dan menyambut Hari Raya yang mendatang InsyaAllah.
Bila DIA Lambat memakbulkan doamu, Maka DIA Ingin Mengujimu
Bila DIA tidak memakbulkan Doamu, maka Dia merancang sesuatu Yang lebih Baik Untukmu. Oleh itu, sentiasalah bersangka baik pada ALLAH dalam apa jua keadaan pun
Kerana kasih sayang ALLAH Itu Mendahului KemurkaanNya
Semoga hidup kita diberkati Nya InsyaAllah.. Slamat berpuasa dan menyambut Hari Raya yang mendatang InsyaAllah.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Hiatus
Yup! Its that time again for me to disappear. Too many things happening at the same time. Time to take some time off. Seems like I keep making the same mistakes. You all stay safe and take care! Toodles...
"For all that's worth.. It's not worth it.."
"For all that's worth.. It's not worth it.."
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